i've been shattered with all of things that happened to me, i don't know what to do. although i want to quit from my job, my mum ask me to stay, it been so hard lately, too much pappers, to much emotions, to much bad feeling around me, and too much bad things happened to me. My GM keep ask me to do a lot of works which i can't handle, i could handle them actually, But all the works he gave to me, till when i haven't finished do the first job, he gave me another, and gave me others else. i'm sick of this. when i tell my mum about this, she told me to be patient, she told me to have positive thinking. sometimes i want to cry, i want to cry with this position, i cant handle my feeling here. last night i woke up at 3 and i've got terrible stomachache. i dont wanna go to bathroom, it just feel so horrible like im going to die.
i know i cant say that my job is bad, although it is bad. i have big responsibility, but all of these thing are not my desk job. when i enter this company, my boss say that my desk job is as marketing, and im a marketing, but now, i take, no, the GM gave me all of the fucking papers for me. its just tiring. i don't do my job but i have to take a big responsibility of it. my job is as marketing, and marketing is about looking for project and make it realization and thats it! no more and no less.
Patient, although my my mum always asked me o be patient, but its not an easy thing to do! it's not just to be patient and its over.. i hate these things.
sometimes i think that God gives me this work coz He has a plan for me, good plan for me, but when i think about it again, what is good thing that will happened to me in this office. its like a cage for me, and i just like a dove in the cage, can do nothing but stay, and when my master give me foods, i have to eat them to survive.
