huaaaaa

see i wrote that a man that i like in office doesnt like me, he'll go to papuma beach without me,, huaaa.. coz next week i'll going to semarang, its annoying!i though he just joke around me, but its really happened. he will go there.. hiks hiks..
its not about him actually, but its because i want to see the beach, beach with white sands..
i wanna cry really, i dont wanna back to semarang, i dont wanna see my dentist,, i wanna go with him to the beach,,,!! huaaaaa

my day today

today is a bad day for me, i dont know why, but i really dont want to do everything before me. im not concentrate to my job, n do a lot of mistakes. i have really bad mood today,, arrghh, even i dont know what should i type,

Ah i was create 2 poets, although i know that they weird or even absurd, well yeah,

i want to move..
i want to be free
i dont like to be here
i'm boring like pathetic

i have a dream,
my others say that i just a dreamer,
a dreamer without a dream
nothing to do to make a dream come true

i'm just an ordinary woman,
who get shattered with this situation
i just want to get out of this cage
and spread my wings in the air

i just a stupid woman
who sit on the stupid rule
i just a roboot
who always do whatever others say

i want to be free
spread my wings high
i want to get out of my cage
which makes my wings sore

what should i do?
i say it silly
whta will i do?
i say it crazy

i will just live
to what i am now
continue this life
and hope my dreams come true...




there's another one..
tell about a man that i like, but i know what he about me

there's something different on you
i have no idea whether i see you different
or no one see your difference
but your difference is good on you

its not a big deal for me
coz i know what will going on
moreover, i'll do what i did
nothing different, nothing changing

i'll see the time
and see my fate
will you be mine?
or you 'll be anothers

its my story not yours
its my life not yours
so thats why i'll make a line
i started, and i'll finish it...

day to day

its been 5 months i worked here, keep in touch with all of my friends and become a same girl as was. when i memorized to 5 months ago, the first thing i saw when i entered this company's door was him, i was seeing him and so was i. im curiuos about him, n soon we become close, go out together, although it was with some of my friends, but its good enough i think.
today is March 5th, 2014. about 4 days ago, i heard that he will continue his study to one of a institute in this city. actually i was bit shocked, i didn't have any idea. and it was completely came in sudden. in the other hand i want to try to get scholarship to australia, and i dont tell anybody about this. no one know in this office about my planing. at first i didnt sure about my plan because of him, coz its fun being in the office with him, although there's no special thing with him, but i just enjoy it. but when i heard about his plan to go to institute, at same time, i want to move too. aarrghh its so annoying. of course if i accepted there.
ah and one thing, he's 3 years younger than me. lol, its funny, but yeah, its right.its my first time also to fall with a boy much younger than me

well i'll continue tomorrow, its goin dark now.